Deep Thoughts

What are your family dynamics?

I think the passing of my Grampy will be a test of how our family handles tough situations.

It amazes me how two people (my Grammy and Grampy) who spent their lives working and giving to others can leave behind a family in crisis over who gets what and how much of it they are "entitled" to.

I feel like this farm is a gift and a legacy to our entire family and to bring it to a matter of money almost makes me ill.

One person was chosen to be an executor of the farm and feels the responsibility in making sure it remains in the manner they feel it was intended, yet another feels a financial need that would surely take away from that.

So how do you find a balance?

This is what I want to know.... why can't things just stay the same?

Why can't we just continue on with the way things were a month ago?

The farm financially supports itself and my family can continue with the daily chores that keep it going.

No one else in the family wants to live here, they just want to know it will always be here for them to come to and for our children to come to.

This farm was the one sure thing we had during our chaotic childhood. The one thing that always stayed the same. The same loving people were always there to meet you at the door when you arrived and then took your picture when you were pulling out of the driveway to go home.

The smell of my Grammy's cooking and my Grampy's barn clothes in the utility room.

I will always remember that.

It was the smell of closeness and the smell of love

So I guess in my heart, I wonder if money can replace any of that.

Can a vacation or a new t.v remind you of the feeling you get walking in these doors?

I hope I never have to ask anyone in my family that question.