Better Today

O.k, so after a good nights sleep (thanks Mom) and GK home from the Hospital, I feel much better today.
Sorry for the cyber meltdown last night.
I hate to take it out on you, but it seems as though I just got caught up in a tornado yesterday.
I wish I could have just put my face in a bucket of cold stone last night, but when I got home even my sugar free jell-o had frozen on the bottom shelf of the fridge.

Heres the scoop. Grampy got a call from his Doctor on Wednesday evening saying his calcium was so low he needed to come into the emergency room and have a calcium injection.
Well, Mike and I were at Wyatt's conference and for the first time I had forgotten to forward our home phone to my cell phone.
I have ingrained in GK's mind that I am ALWAYS on the other end of the telephone line. I wasn't.
He had called John, but John's answering machine wasn't hooked up and John must have been in the garage.
GK was out on a limb.
We got home about 5:20 and Mike was on his way to the E.R with GK in tow by 5:30.
They spent about 3 1/2 hours there and discovered that GK was going to be admitted.
To say the least, GK was not thrilled by this bit of information.
When they got him settled in a room Mike headed for home, stopping to get the first thing he had had to eat ALL day.
He had forgot to pack a lunch the night before :(

Grammy slept well that night and Wyatt stayed with us.
He said it was a slumber party with some of his favorite girls.
Me, Grammy, and the poodles.

The next day it started as a simple ring of the phone at about 8:00.
The phone did not stop ringing all day.
The nurse who had seen Grammy on Monday came to do her follow up, but not before calling me three times.
When she got there, she said Grammy was doing very well, but still had blah blah blah and what did her doctor have to say about that.
I said her doctor had said nothing. Should he have?
Well yes, he should have. You need to call them.
That began an all day back and forth stream of phone calls to Dr.B's office ending at 5:00 with the nurse calling me to say there was nothing to worry about. Grammy is fine.
Why did it take six non-informative calls and seven hours to come to that conclusion?
I had two calls in to one of GK's doc's only to be told on the third attempt that the doctor wasn't even in the office that day.
The eye doctors office had two girls call three times to tell me that GK can NOT wear his contacts.
Duh.
I wish they could tell me how to convince HIM of that.
As it stands they don't know how they can get him new lenses without him having his old ones in to check sizing, but he can't wear is old ones because of the infection in his eyes that then transffered to his contacts that will then reinfect his eyes.
How do people get contacts the first time?

Keep in mind there are still meals to fix, frickin stinky dogs to tend to and of course my life accross the driveway that is still in progress.

Gk called to check in every couple hours to see how his wife and dogs were holding up, and telling me how badly he wanted to be home.
Thats a heartbreaker.
Late afternoon he called to say they were keeping him another night.

Mid afternonn the neighbor Prick er I mean Rick showed up.
I think if I had just followed my instinct and punched him in the face I would have felt much better the rest of the day.
He is lke a fugging vulture that wants GK's property so bad he can taste it.
I think his biggest fear is that something will happen to GK before he can steal it from him.
Now I was mad and hating him on top of everything else.

So maybe you can understand why when Julie called me at about 6:00 to ask how things were going I started to cry and came home and had a very public cyber meltdown.

There were just some things I needed to say and then move on.
I also NEEDED to smoke that cigerette to remind me that smoking doesn't make anything better, it just makes my hair stink.

Gk is home and has decided that taking tums will cure his need for calcium.
I just smiled and said it's always good to know your cure.

Gk is in his chair with his dogs and the remote.
Grammy is resting on the couch.
All my dogs have been outside.
Wyatt is watching t.v.
I have had a long hot shower.
I will not miss GH today.
Today is a new day and so far it is a very good one.

Hi Gina : )

Late Edition

GK had to go to the Hospital last night due to a calcium shortage. They have been giving him calcium in a bag
(is that like a juice bag?) through the night and still doing so when I talked with him about ten minutes ago.

I'm just home letting the dogs out and getting dressed and left Wyatt in charge at the big house.

I will up date when I have news.

C Ya

Hmmmm

Can you smell that????
I'm smoking.
I'm smoking because I can't eat.
I'm smoking because I can't drink.
I'm smoking because I am stressed.
I'm stressed because GK is still in the Hospital.
I'm stressed because I talk to Doctors all day and they don't tell me anything, or they tell me to much.
I'm stressed because I need to keep everyone informed and I don't always have answers to all the questions.
I'm stressed because I may not do what people think I should be doing.
I'm stressed because I can't always do what I feel I need to do for everyone
I'm stressed because I am doing ALL I can do, but what if it isn't enough.
I'm not smoking anymore and I don't think I will again, but it's nice to know I can if I need to.

I missed GH today

Doctor Day

John was over first thing this morning to pick up GK. They were out the door by 8:00. Gk had an apt with his hemotologist to check his red blood count and general well being. I was pretty sure they would end up doing a transfussion and be gone all day, so I was happy to see them come through the door before noon! Gk's levals are still holding strong. As the doctor explained to John, they can not cure the cancer, but they can supress it. Thats good enough for me.
John also had a talk with GK about driving. John told him he would be over once a day and if GK has anything to do, they can go together. I don't think GK was thrilled at this idea, but agreed he could at least come over and he would think about letting John go with him to town.
It sure is hard letting go of control. Even little bits at a time.

Grammy is feeling good today, although she is still pretty tired. I wonder if just being on the anti-biotics may contribute to that. She got up and got dressed (sometime during the night she had taken off her pajamas and put them back on inside out) and then came to the table for breakfast. I put a couple eggo waffles down for her and she was THRILLED. Waffles for breakfast, my land, this must be a special day! I told her it was and she deserved to have waffles every morning. She smiled and laughed and told me I shouldn't have gone to all the trouble of making waffles. Do you think it was really a "lie" for letting her think I made the waffles? I mean I did open the package and skillfully remove them from the toaster at just the right moment when they were just crisp and not yet burnt.
After breakfast we watched some t.v, and I talked to Kelly on the phone. They are enjoying the weather in Texas and the Boy's were doing their homework. I hope they can come for a visit during springbreak.

I talked to Julie later and she said she would come down for a week while we enjoy a gift from them. An all expense paid cruise to Mexico.
That's not true, but it doesn't hurt to plant a seed.
She did say they would be down again sometime though.

Wyatt is home from school today and we have his teacher conference at 4:00. Good planning on the teachers part for scheduling after my program. He told me to expect to hear great things, but not be dissapointed if I don't. I guess he belives in covering all his bases.

Mike is off early today, but he usually goes to the shop and works till' my show is over. He really is a good husband.

I'm done.

So Far So Good

Well, as things go, todays off to a good start. Grammy is sleeping and GK is feeling pretty good. Wyatt is in school, and Mike is at work.
Everybody take a big sigh of relief, because I'm sure it can't last to long!

I tell ya, this buiseness of bladder infections really wears me out. I can only imagine what it does to Grammy. I can't understand why it would take a doctor as long as it does to provide some relief to a patient. Out of sight out of mind I guess, and believe you me.....we were out of friggin mind yesterday.

Well, today I have about a weeks worth of laundry to do. Three fat STINKY dogs to wash and an eight year olds room to clean.
Any wagers on what gets done? As you can see, I'm not getting much done sitting here now.

I got an email from Lindy this morning. She say's Consuela had a baby girl Feb 18th. Hard to imagine Con a mother. She's the same age as Wendy.
I'm sure people said that when I had Wendy.
What? Marilyn had a baby? Is she even in High School yet?
Haha....I'm glad I wasn't my Mother!

Ummm....I only lost ONE FRIGGIN pound last week.
That sucks.

I'm still thinking about what people thought when I had Wendy, and that makes me think about what people thought when I had Wyatt.
What? Wendy is FIFTEEN. With Jack? She's having a baby with JACK??? What is she thinking?????
That's funny.

As you can see, I'm just killing time now.
I don't really have anything else to talk about.
I should go do some more laundry.
I'm kind of just waiting for the phone to ring. Then I could talk out loud and have someone say something back.
Do you ever do that? Talk out loud to yourself? And then answer? Out loud?
Out loud. That sounds funny.
Kind of like speak out. If you can speak out, can you speak in? Would that be talking to yourself?

I gotta go.

I just got another email from Lindy. We are talking about Lunch Box Kathy's Tummy tuck and thinking she should have just gone with a girdle and a good bra and saved some money.

Bye

Nothing

I haven't done anything all day and it has REALLY worn me out.
I think I'll take a nap before Wyatt gets home.

BIG EGG

This is a goose egg!